BABY;BAOBEIIX ♥ lovesloves*

♥ March 16, 2008

GUYS, I'VE MOVED.. CLICK HERE.

♥ i'd love u since forever

8:47 PM

♥ March 13, 2008

nth much to say. this week, wont be gg over to his hus..
due to some reason. shall not elaborate.
these few days mood were lousy. sigh.

shall end here. bye~

♥ i'd love u since forever

10:48 PM

♥

U & I

Yes, he says that i dun trust him, wel,, perhaps i dont.
i dun trust ppl completely.. the way he show his expressions & all.
i know he cant hide his lies well eh.? alright, im being sensitive i admit.
Girls, get sensitive easily right? So, dun blame me for being sensitive.
i once told u tt i get OVER-sensitive easily. EASILY i mean!

okay, u might think tt im unreasonable or what.
hais~

i must say tt i couldnt feel the care. i said this for so many times.
but, all i get is " u think too much ".
izzit? am i thinking too much or? i can feel that the care was no longer strong.
i wont say u were diff. from last time.
i had the rest of u, now i want the best of u~ can i?
i might get angry over a small lil thing.
but tt's not petty.. i hope u understand... =)
sometimes friends wonder, why always placed BF the 1st?
everytime we decided to meet up, but i'm always the one backing out.
i didnt mean it~ what held me back? it's you..
i wanna stay at home and stay on the phone with you.
thou there's nth much we could say, but by just staying on the phone, im happy =DD
i stil rmb, once i went out with my girls, i would just hope tt i could go home soon.
to stay on the phone with u... but, i cant disappoint my girls right??
so, i would just have to bear with it. i force myself to think tt u were still bz.
every min, the urge of rushing home to cal u kept running thru my head.
i'd always place u 1st in my heart... *i really do*
i admit tt everytime we quarrel, its about a small thing.
and u said, its not worth~ yes, i think so too.
and each time we quarrel, i over do it. i admit. and im sorry.
i know sorry cant ease the pain and hurt i cause.
each time i say things tt hurt u, it's hurting me too.
it's like, a gun pointed at my heart, and shot hard right into it.

from now, i wont rake up your past,
and wont do things tt hurt u.

all i want is to sweeten our r/s.. =)
till then, i love u.

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♥ i'd love u since forever

12:25 AM

♥ March 11, 2008

世界忽然变心
忽然很安静
无助的我一秒间失去重心
听你不停为我担心
看你不停离我而去
你要我照顾自己

是我做了什么
让天使生气
还是忘了做什么幸福远离
也许该要真的相信
有种爱叫远远挂心
痛却又哽住呼吸

我用空白用无力用懦弱去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没把你权力决定

我用痛苦用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气诚实地想你

是我做了什么让天使生气
还是忘了做什么幸福远离
也许应该要真的相信
是有种爱叫远远挂心
痛却又哽住呼吸 yeah...

我用空白用无力用懦弱去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没把你权力决定

我用痛苦用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得
已越懂才越有勇气诚实地想你

是不是担心我怕黑不敢前进
那颗本来没坠落的流星
在拼命烧亮了自己

我用空白用无力用懦弱去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没把你权力决定

我用痛苦用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气诚实地想你

♥ i'd love u since forever

10:47 PM

♥

LOVE the one u love for who thy are~
accept their everything~ including their bad points.
i once thot tt i could change for a person, but i cant.
i tried, and i failed. i need time??
no! even it takes forever, i would just simply wont change.
and baby, i wont stop u from doing things u like from now onwards.
iPromise.
i'd always wanted ppl to put emself in my shoes,
but i didnt think for em. i know im selfish.
but, so what? tts me what.
since last month, things slowly turn 'sour'.
i admit i got the mindset of letting go~ but i just couldnt bear.
i wan it to be like the 1st time when we got tgh.
everything's so sweet. =) i try to keep this r/s stable.
i tried, and i cried. the tears i shed, the sleeples nights i had.
everything's so wrong since last month.
we once said tt, "we'll be tgh forever"...
i know we'll be tgh forever~

♥ i'd love u since forever

2:12 AM

♥ March 10, 2008

hey peeps. =)
yesyes, here to blog again.

yars, i know its been like forever since i last blogged ehs.?
cos my com down mahs. tts why~
actually, dunno what to blog eh~
mind blank blank de. only filled with baby baby baby~
lols! alrighty, im insane~ arghs!

( past few weeks, everything seems so wrong, everything happened so fast.
Baby, pardon me for being over-sensitive alright? cos u know i like to think too much de.
so dun blame me okay? i miss baby =) hmmm, maybe in future, i must think b4 i talk eh.?
shall elaborate what happened. put it behind me. cos it had past. no used clinging on it.
as long as baby's with me, im happy~ =DD )

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♥ i'd love u since forever

7:56 AM

♥ January 24, 2008

bibi, i miss u^^

as u cann see.. i hv not update for quite a long time ehh.
wel, im busy mahx. last sun, went shopping.
town-ed all day with baby. bugis was our first stop.
nth caught my eye. we then went down to marina..
bought myself a cardigan. a black one. cause baby prefer black.. =DD
thn, to suntec. hmmm, nth there~ then went to had early dinner.
at NEW YORK. nicenice^^ had mushroom alfredo with roasted chicken for myself.
and baby's is pork chop. had cheese garlic bread and calamari too.
aft tt, train-ed to somerset. went fareast. baby bought a shirt. nice~ ^^
as for me, i bought 3boxers! yippee! baby choose for me de. sweet bo? lols.
thn walk to wisma. walk walk. see see look look..
but nth caught my eye. we then walk to cine~
Pandora's Box! bought a dress. tried 2. but chose 1. lols.
black. hahas! aft tt, went back to baby's place.
took my clothes all tt, jiu home sweet home. baby sent me back.

tiring ehh~ smth occured when we were at fareast~
hais.... .. =/ dun wanna elaborate nahx.
it just make me feel like crying when i think of it. nvm.
past le. jiu let it past bahs. hais.
i still love bibi so much! =DD

this goes to bibi ::

Bibi, no matter how many guys walk past me..
i'll nvr look/glance at em de. really~ trust me.
it hurts me when u insist tt im looking at one.
hais.. =( i feel so sad. gosh! u dun trust me.
even thou' at the back u said i didnt look. wth!
u still dun trust me aftall.. nvm.
at least im unlike u~ u DID glance at other girls. dont u??!
i DID noticed it. but i chose to keep quiet.
cause i know u'll deny. i know u too well le baby.
it came blurting out, out of a sudden. cause i wanto let u know how i feel.
i tried so hard to change. yes, u say u can see the difference in me.
but why it is tt i cant feel the care u used to show me anymore?
is it tt u cant be bothered abt me anymore?
u show no care for me anymore?? why? why me??
baby, as i think back the days when we just get tgh, the care u show is nvr less.
the attention i get from u is always there. but now.? everything changed?
ever since u get enlisted, a diff. side of u appear. im afraid. im scared.
are u still the baby i used to know? u might say tt im too sensitive.
im thinking too much. but how i hope im really just too sensitive and is thinking too much.
hais.... .. mayb, i'd just continue to love u. and this is what i really wanto do.
rmb what i told u in msg? i almost wanted to give up. but i cant.
and now, i just wanto love u more. deeper, Deeper, DEEPER!!!!!

Labels: i spill my heart on u, till the day i die

♥ i'd love u since forever

5:07 AM

♥ January 16, 2008

why always make me upset?

yes, saw the title up thr? yup, why always upset me??
always make my tears drop again and again~
today, wont be talking to u on the phone... as i said,,
once u say we can talk til 930, jiu shi 930.
but, u were held up by smth til arnd 7+ or 8... darn!

hais.. disappointment again. nt everytime, but MOST of the time.
why? why me? ytd quarrel, today? hais.. =(
anw, im sick and tired of all these. arghhs!!! dam!

alright, im insane. i'd have got enough. im tired.
can just let me close my eyes and go?
and everything would be alright.... ..

still waiting for the day where we get married...
there we are.... .. i wanna be your lil wifey~ xDD

Labels: there we are.

♥ i'd love u since forever

3:04 AM

♥ January 13, 2008

::da pi gu;xiao pi gu::

i miss my xiao pi gu! =/
ytd went to cwp, meet xiao pi gu thr~
thn off to movies... =) AVP2!! -nicenice-
whn the time gets nearer for me to met xiao pi gu,
i was damn happy!! awww~

but whn i met xiao pi gu, i was even happy.
his hair long liaos.. =)
but think gonna cut off soon bahs??
hahahas! alright, went up to the cinema and buy the tix first.
thn went to eat beef noodle at the foodcourt~

aft eating, walk to arcade. we stand outside~
watching ppl plaeing. and guess wht?
saw this auntie, caught so many sweets lahx!!!
like 2-3 bags full canns???? arghs! so much.
kinda kong bu lehs. walaos~

thn went up to the cinema~
went into the threatre.. seated down.
brr~~~ its cold inside.. hahas!
nvr bring cardigan along. =( stupid me.

and whn the show end, i know the time for us to part,,
is getting nearer~ =( tears secretly dropped down thru out thr movie.
i didnt make it obvious~ cause i didnt want baby to know.
i want him to see my best~ to see my smile~

thn we walk to the bus interchange, hand-in hand~
how i wish this would replay again and again.
holding on to his hand, nvr to let go.
but in the end, we stil have to... .. =(

reached my hus le.. at the lift~
goodbye kiss, thn baby went down le..
i watched him from above whn he went down..
and as soon as he turn and walked away,
tears triggered down like water tap.
i cried all the way home,, tried to stop, but cant. ='(

went to bath, tears are still gushing out.
i cant control~ i really cant..
till i call baby, i force myself to sound normal.
cause dun wan baby to know i cry.
put down the phone, went to lie on bed and wait for baby to reach home.

and aft he bath, he msg'ed me.
aft replying him, off to sleep.
cant really sleep. i cried again and again.
thn my mummy came in. i was crying then...
she asked, "u miss ben alot"? i nod my head.
and cried even worse.. yes, i miss baby alot alot..

i miss his meimei too.
so long nvr see her le. kinda miss eh.
missed plaeing UNO, monopoly and donkey with her..
hais... but when wil i ever get to plae with her again??
nxt month bahs... .. =)

and i could only get to see baby once a week.
its hurting, im suffering... .. someone help me please..
i miss miss miss, love love love, need need need my xiao pi gu!!

da pi gu;xiao pi gu::lovesloves*
1707070000amtuesday

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♥ i'd love u since forever

2:52 AM

♥ January 11, 2008

[[ i miss my SMALL butt! :x ]]

alrighty, the title a bit pervert. yes, small butt is my love alright~
baby, u agree? hahas! u know, i know. no need to elaborate le bahs?
hmmm, i miss baby. so muchhy!! arghss! tmr meeting le.

but this time round, nvr stay at his place.
cause have to work mahs.
baby baby, im now much more xinku thn u!
have to work continously lehs.
so kelianns horr? sat sun also must work.
but luckily is work til evening nias.
if not i die die ahs!! :x

alright, dun mention the word die or words tt do with death.
hahas! so baby, tmr ya? meeting!!!
thn off to movie rites? im waiting waiting waiting.
macam waited for years liao. lols! =.=''
lame i know.... ..

yupps, i miss baby! baby is LOVE!!
muackxs.

kiss;huggs
for baby...
te day, 170707.
te start~ U&I.

Labels: miss my small butt.

♥ i'd love u since forever

2:44 AM

♥ January 09, 2008

black: baby's white: mine =)

yes, i miss baby~

now on the phone with him~

but still miss him lehx!!

hahas!!

alright~ today wok e up at 745am.

early hor? cause work mahs!!

bo bianns~ but its all worth it la.

at the end of the day, got money take some more.

who dunwan?? get pay le, jiu go shop~

not use up all~ but to buy clothes only. =)

thn the rest, put in bank!! save!!

just in case need money the nxt time~

okies, today was freakg cold.

in the bus, i was like.... ... shivering~~~ brr~ cold...

hahs! thn today, nvr sweat at all!!! ytd also.

good, then nt sticky and smelly at all~

hehehs.. alrighty, im insane~

hrmms, today was tiring lahs.!!

cause the chance of sitting down was so lil!!

arghs! tired tired~

thn today ate till very full~

bread+milo in the morn, thn fried hokkein mee.

aft that ice-cream, thn dessert "grass jelly".

thn ice-milo again~ my god!! so full.

thn go home, eat noodle with vege, meat and all~

like pig liddat lohs! hard to digest lehs!!!

plus, my leg so suan~ whn walk, very pain.

hais.. ke lianns... =(

but think of the pay, its all worth it la!

i wont ban tu er fei de!!!

no worries~

and im excited!!! excited abt what lehs?

hrmms, abt this sat lohs!

only baby knows~ but i doubt baby will see this bahs.

till here then..... ...

bye all~

shall update soon!! =DD

imissbaby~

ilovehim!

Labels: tiring~ imissbibi~

♥ i'd love u since forever

4:17 AM

♥ January 07, 2008

wel, a simple post it'll be. =)
yes, mable sweetie invite me to her birthday celebration.
but, i'm working. =(
and it's her 21st!!! awwws, wasted lars!
Baby say i can always go after work.
but by the time i finished work, i'll be tired le.
so, think cannot make it bahs. =(

anw, enjoy yourself yars,, girl~~~ [=
apologise to u once again~

yups, will wish her happy birthday on that day itself~ x)

and yes, im a bit hungry now.
cause i had only cheesefries on 4+
and im hungry now~ =/
hmmm, baby reaching home liaos.. =DD
later will talk on the phone bahs.
=) i miss him so much.

and baby, dun always misunderstood me canns? =(
maybe, its my fault too bahs?
i didnt explain my words clear enough bahs.
and it leads to misunderstanding~
wel, nxt time.. will say clearly alright?

iloveyou!
kiss;huggs >>baby<<
the love, so true~

i'd never wanted baby to leave me.
and never to leave baby either. =)
i needs baby here with me,,
always here with me..

the greatest fear,,
i'd never feared before.
the sweetest love,,
i'd never taste before.

benjamin::te love of my life::~~~

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♥ i'd love u since forever

4:51 AM

♥

tired, yet fun~ ps. i miss u, baby!!

yesyes, i went to work today.
early early in the morning~
hahs! help out at my mother's shop.
a very simple set-up stall..
that no youngsters will be willing to work thr.
thy felt shameful maybe??
hahs! but to me. its okay lars.
never rob, never murder~
not a crime or a sin.. =) yes?
im happy with it. =DD

and as i was taking bus home~
i was thinking.. when i get my 1St pay.
i wanto bring baby out... =DD
to buy him a set of shirt.
both top & bottom.
so no matter what, i have to work hard.
persevere~ yes! so as to get money mahs!!

then can dun always let baby do the paying.
he's not a ATM eh.. =)
yars, i miss baby!!! arghs!
now awiting for him to reach home lors.
not so early bahx. =(
and baby is so silly~ so forgetful~
make himself kena 3 xtra duty~
dun wanna elaborate what happened.
i know, he know jiu hao le. =)

BABY, LET THIS BE A LESSON TO U! wahahs!!!

kiss;huggs >>baby<<
miss;loves;need. (n_n)

Labels: fun and miss, its triple. tired

♥ i'd love u since forever

2:24 AM

♥ January 03, 2008

yes, im right here blogging now~ =)
all thanks to baby eh.. =/

make me prepare so early, end up... ...
meet at arnd evening. 5+ 6pm. arghss!
knock your head *hardhard*
hmmm, dunno what to buy for baby's sister leis.

lets wait and decide with baby.
msg him, like msg to unknown ppl like tt.
no reply de. mayb phone low batt or too bz liaos. =.=
yes! his phone low batt... keep using unknown num to call me.
silly baby!! smack your nose ahs!

now say u wan earlier go back!!! arghs. dun piss me of alright.
bite u ahs! k la, gonna go prepare now.
pack pack~ doll-up~ =)

Labels: off to baby's place

♥ i'd love u since forever

7:03 PM

♥

-A TIRING DAY-

yes, a tiring day it is! -.-
woke up early in the morning, thn go opp find mummy.
buy things le jiu go home.. but before tt, i sweep and mop the floor lehs!
wahs, so guai right? yes, im a good girl~ *giggles*

and ytd nites, aft hanging up the phone with baby,
i listen to songs. "cai hong"..
and jot down the thots in me in my diary. =)
which i didnt do for quite a long time le.
and slowly... ... ..
my eyes were wet, my nose were stuck.
tears slowly triggered down. i dunno why.
izzit because i missed baby too much? yes, and its way too much!!

and and and, im missing baby!! baby stay in. =(
so ke lian~ baby's kinda busy lehs. but at least, can get to msg him. =)
hehehs~ stay in also nvm, still can talk on the phone. lalalas ^^
thn baby dunno when still need to stay in.
for the whole week bahs.? not sure ooh.

gosh! hannah's still sad over that matter. girl, be strong.
hope all my advice and words wont go down the drain eh.
i know you're sad, but what's the use of being sad?
"kan kai yi dian"... dun think too much yars?

and baby, end up today i nvr go lehs. =)
hahas! so no worries eh. no guys for me to see.
hahas!!! tmr tmr, tmr can see u liaos. hehehs.
now, have to go back to last time le ooh.
have to wait till every fri thn can see u. =(
everythings' back to normal le. but, no matter what,
we'll stil stick to each other de ooh. =DD

i miss my silly baobeiixbaby!

::missing: baby =D
::wanna: be in your arms :x
::awaiting: the day we get married. =Xx

Labels: the tears secretly triggered down last nites.

♥ i'd love u since forever

1:59 AM

♥ January 02, 2008

NEVER CLING ON TO THE PAST!

dun get the wrong idea of the title yars~ =)

this goes out to my darling -hannah-
darling, nvr ever cling on to the past alright?
he made u upset again and again.. if im u, i'l nvr cling on to him anymore.
the endless times of u and him is way too much.
in the view if mine, i think he's taking things for granted bahs.
and if he thinks he's ashame of being with a ite student, fuck care him lars!
what's wrong with ite ppl?? $!#@$!#@$! bastard siol!!

anw, let it past alright? dun be upset.. dun cry.. u stil have me leis.
i'm always here de, u knew it right?? =) so, smilesmile.
tmr we go enjoy ourself k??
finally, can go out with u all le. aft all the delays, finally i'm meeting u all!!
but only u and jessica. and mayb JC? XM, she wont go for sure de.
we all knew her too well le. yars?

and this post is basically abt u, darling.. hahas! i love u to bits alright?? -muackxs-

wel wel, now.. back to normal post now bahs.
i miss baby!! badly lahs!
baby going to plae mj at his grandma hus again. =(
mj this word freaks me out. but so what? hahas!
i cant stop him from plaeing also mahx. so what if i give att.?
he will only treat it as im ridiculous and irritating bahs? i dunno lehs.
so, i just kept quiet and keep it with myself. =)
after all those quarrels, hurts and tears i've drop.
im now strong! stronger than ever. i will try not to cry in front of u.
i'll try my best to hold back my tears.
cause, i want u to see the best in me. not the weaker part of me.=)
baby. after all those quarrels, saddness. i'd come to love u more!
more than ever~ and it'll keep on going. till the day we grow old, till the day i die.
baby, grow old with me, will u? i miss+love+need u now, then and till the end..

Labels: never to cling on to the past darling -hannah-

♥ i'd love u since forever

1:44 AM

♥ January 01, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR...

happy new year ppl.. =)
2007 has past and here comes 2008.
a new year, a new beginning.

2007 = memories =)
the past.. let it fade away.. the bad ones i mean..
like what baby say, put the past behind and look ahead.
but baby, the memories between U & I, will always fill my mind. =)

5months with baby le. (n_n)
and still counting.... ... yea?
i truly love him and cant afford to lose him.
170707, the start of U & I. i'll always remember.
baby, u will also remember it. isnt it?? =DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WANGWANG =DD

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♥ i'd love u since forever

8:03 AM

♥ December 30, 2007

A Simple Post...

lets make this a simple post yars.

precisely, im at home now..
waiting for the time to pass....
its now only 12pm. and its too early for me to go over baby's place.
shall rot at home for the time being uhh.

yesyes, i miss him now.
even thou ytd just part. it makes me go crazy when i think of baby.
he's not beside me now. but like baby say.
its the fact that we both have our own things to do after all.
so, its no choice that we have to part.. =(

sound sad uhh. but, its the fact la!
until the day when we really get married.
thats when we can get to see each other so often.
which i wanted this way!!! arghs!

anw, i miss baby.
so much. freakg much. hahas!
i just love him the way he is.
he's not useless, he's always the best!

Labels: washing off those memories

♥ i'd love u since forever

7:51 PM

♥

words, yet no action

yes, words, but no action.
hais.. but im not angry la.
just a bit disappointed.
that's all.. cause i thot he really would come...

but, the fare is "chor". so, forget bout it bahx.
dun wanna quarrel with baby..
cause, today going out. thn later like xmas jiu jia lat liao.
i dun like la. whn everyones' happy, thn me.... ..
spoil la. hahas..

i miss baby now..! so dam badly!
hais.. thn aft tmr, baby need to go back to work le.
but, its ok la. he already pei me so many many days le.
im happy with it. =) i love baby to bits!

baby, dun ever say that your useless alright.?
to me, your not useless.. okay.??
muackxs!

Labels: disappointed.

♥ i'd love u since forever

7:29 PM

♥

stayed at baby's hus for so long..
its time for me to go back home now~
thou i hate to part with baby. dam! -cries-
but, i missed my fam alright? i really miss em' so badly.
that i even cry secretly when baby's asleep.
i missed my mummy, my two dearest bros.
i miss my bed too, thou baby's bed is comfy. =)

so many days spent with baby.
i realise smth.. baby's att. towards me changed.
how to say?? as in how? i dont really sense that baby care for me like last time.
he wont take the initiative to hold my hand anymore. -seldom that he does-
how i wished i could ask him in person...
"Baby, do u still care for me"? i need to know. but can i ever open my mouth?
and baby, if u ever saw this.. could u tel me the ans?
im not doubting u. but, i dun ahve the sense of secure from u anymore.
baby, show me u care for me once again alright? =)

we've spent months tgh.. i really enjoy every moment with u baby~
and this will go on till the end, isnt it baby??
and the phrase, "i think u really should change your att.",, hit me hard at my head.
after u say this, i really give it a thot.
i think real hard. and yes, i should change.. i really should change..
cause im afraid u mite leave me for good. which i didnt want.

i used to think that, can i be like the princess in the fairytale?
to live happily ever after with my love one.

till now, i still cant get the ans.
alright, im being a bit naive here now.
thats me.. =)

now baby must be sleeping..

and i think its time for me to sleep too. =)

nites baby.
nites ppl.
waiting the day, 2008 to arrive. =)

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♥ i'd love u since forever

11:54 AM

♥

back to blog..
it has been dunno how many donkey years,
since i last blog. -.-
xmas eve was happy yet sad for me.
-thinking back, really makes me wanna cry- hais...
i just couldnt control..
but the moment baby pass his dessert and water
to her.. my tears triggered down.
i tried to hold back my tears.. but i aint tt strong after all...
im not being ridiculous here ppl...
think. put yourself in my shoe.
as a girl, who would be able to tolerate this?
and it applies to guys too..
so does tt mean, if i pass my food to other guys,
it doesnt matter to u?? hais..
yes, im jealous. but, i it does not mean...
i'll dislike her. and if she happens to passby here.
i will say, i dun bother bout what happened anymore.
its over. its the past..
but i cant forget.. thou its the past, but i still cant over it.
xmas should be happy. but... .. not this year.
it seems so.... cold. i felt like dying on the way back to baby's hus.
cold and alone.. the journey to baby's hus is totally scary.
baby's not beside me. he's at the other side..
and baby, i cann feel tt u cant be bothered when i ignore u.
not like last time. u would try many ways to cheer me up.
but not now... is it because u cant tolerate me anymore??
i dont know. but baby, i will try my best not to show u att. anymore yars.
i cannt promise u but i will try to promise u alright?
your everything i ever needed...

Labels: i aint that strong after all

♥ i'd love u since forever

11:25 AM

♥ December 23, 2007

well, many things came rushing back to me~
i was sad thou~ cause...
baby doesnt seems to care for me like
he used to be le. =(
last time, when i flare my temper and ignore him,
he'll try many ways to make me smile
and turn to him again.
but now, everything seems to have changed.
changed~ hais.
was upset. i feel like crying now!!
now, even when i flare my temper at him,
he doesnt seems to care abt me anymore.
maybe im too over-board,
tt's why he cant be bothered anymore??
i dunno. but im feeling pretty upset now.
cann someone console me?? hais..
baby, im sorry if i did smth wrong,
but didnt realise it. forgive my wrong-doings~
will u baby? so afriad tt u might leave me for good.
do u know my fears? u knew it baby. u knew it well de.
baby, always so happy to see u.
so many things tt i wanted to tel u,
but how to start? how to put it into phrases?
always wanted to tel u how much i love u.
but when the words was abt to come out.
hahs! its a failure attempt. i knew it.
i hate myself for not being able to say it out.
but baby, i'd never say this to any guys before.
your the 1St. remember whats the date?
the day? bet u've clean forgotten bahx.
Baby, i miss u. so much. tt i wanted to cry out now.
everytime we quarrel, it all started by me.
i felt stupid after every quarrels. its my fault,
and yet, your the one always giving in to me.
and the one always saying sorry..
im always being unreasonable. and yet,
baby, u can tolerate with all my nonsense.
thank you baby for everything.,
everything.... yes baby, everything~
from the very 1St day i knew u, till now..
5months plus spent with u, was indeed a wonderful one.
i enjoy being tgh with u. i love u to bits!!! =DD
your my sunshine! your my precious!
i love u baby..
never doubt me alright? =)

Labels: everything seems so wonderful.

♥ i'd love u since forever

1:45 AM

♥ December 22, 2007

23DEC2007

Just parted with baby.
baby send me home, then rush back to jurong
to fetch his grandfather le.
cause thy gg to airport. ftech baby's grandmother.
how i wish i was with baby now. hais..
but not. cause my stomach hurts like f*Ck! OMG.
im dying lars! :x

alright..for the past 4days, keep town-ing with baby.
OMG~ imagine.. our legs almost break canns?
shop for xmas.. =)
xmas' coming~ yeahss.. =DDD
Baby bought himself a pair of shorts, a cardigan,
two pair of skinnys.
He bought me a necklace, fake-eyelash and a pair of
watch for me and himself~
mine white, and he's black.
xiexie baby~ =)
baby bought present for his fam too.
so nice of him..
spent tons of money eh.
ytd, went to heeren, cine, taka/wisma.
with baby, fred, irene, jane corn and maurice~ =)
ate yoshinoya~ quite early. cause i hungry mahx.
then end up, everybody has to eat early too. :x
sorry ppl. =(
after tt, went to cine's chamber~
watch horror movie. grr~ scary.
-to sir, with love & the wig-
aft tt, me baby and corn went to the carpark
opp cine. baby's father is waiting.
he pass the car to baby.. then we went to tanglin mall.
to fetch baby's frens. thn bla bla bla~~~~~~
reach batok. baby's fren bdae~ BBQ.
lotsa lotsa ppl. dun like it. hahas.
but baby nvr leave me alone =)
if not im like an idiot eh?
eat eat, sing bdae song.
thn went home le. baby's house of cos! =) *tired*
spent so many days with baby le..
its time for me to go home. hehehes.
but, tmr gonna go find baby again. =)
cos it's xmas eve!
i wanna spend with baby!!!!
with his frens thou~
but only with baby, it'll be wonderful!
then baby tonite gg out.. hais.. without me ooh. =(
cause gg to his last time de wrkplace.
then i go for what??
hais... then i tot baby got the perserverance to ask me go de.
but, nvr... saddening uhhs? -cries-
think of this, i jiu feel like crying siax!
actually i wanto follow de. but think.. better not la.
cause if i go, who send me home?
sianns la. baby send me mehx?? so ma fan for him.
dunwan do things tt ma fan baby..
hais.. so i lonely lors. stay at home.
wait til tmr. hais hais hais....
im dying~ really dying.
anw, stop here le.
i miss baby lots!

Labels: Baby, hope your with me now~

♥ i'd love u since forever

10:44 PM

♥ December 17, 2007

HAPPY 5MONTHSARY BABY!!

Baby, so fast hor?

jiu 5month liaos.

like i say, no matter fast or slow.

our love would be still as strong as ever right? =)

wo ai ni, so much!! XD

Even thou ytd spent the whole day at baby's hus.

but im still happy! cause can bully him, look at him, talk to him.

im happy with it. really ooh. (n_n)

aft today, baby jiu on leave liaos. yipee!

hahas. and yes, i can get to see baby often. teeheehee [=

grr~ now so cold. gonna rain liaos.

sky orhorh. hate it lars. =Xx

dam! i miss baby. arghs!

lalalas.. so bored. dunno what baby is doing now.

dam! im hungry =/

end here le. bye peeps.

i miss baby, i miss my frens. =)

Labels: start my day with a smile =)

♥ i'd love u since forever

10:38 PM

♥ December 13, 2007

suddenly, i miss baby so much.
hais.. i always wanted to tell baby
what im thinking~ but always, i couldnt. sighs.
i dunno how/where to start..
useless, aint I? =(
smtimes, i might seem so naive.
thinking bout things tt isnt possible.
but, mayb its possible? who knows?
yes, i always say tt i would loved to
marry baobei~ and he said, this day will exist.
but, what if one day he really leaves me for good??
what will become of me?
i might just break down anytime.
but i really really hope tt baby wont leave me ehs.
wel, was thinking too much here. =)
baby, let me stay with u alright?
i wanto stay right in your heart, that spot.
never to leave! can I?
i wan u to be the only one to share my joy with.
lifes' never gonna be the same,
ever since i met u..
im glad i met u baby~
i'd never tot tt the day for us to be tgh, does exist!!
i really need u, and i do really love u.
u know it well right baby?? =)
i'd never doubt your love,
so baby, dont ever doubt my love alright??
i'd never love u any less.. i love u & i truly truly love u~
170707 >>the start of U & I<<
im happy than before! ever since,,
i know your feelings towards me.
i love u with no regrets~ (n_n)
simply, i love miss need you!!

Labels: that lil naive girl~

♥ i'd love u since forever

8:42 PM

♥

HURT HURT HURTS!!! $#!$@#
alrighty, im insane~ =)
hais~ i nvr wanted to quarrel.
and yes, i wanted to hang up the phone,
its because i wanted u to slp early.
and what??
i dunno why. T.T
hais.. mayb i did smth wrong. but didnt realise.
and did i ever say tt your chatting with other girls??
i nvr alright.. sigh~
i felt so lousy.. i could sense tt you've changed.
mayb im too sensitive? or paranoid?
alright, my fault.. my fault.. i apologise yars?
i dunno what to do/say.
im tired.
baby, im still waiting for the day
that we get married.
to become wifey&husband.
u told me tt this day will arrive.
i've been waiting.. even it takes forever,,
i'll still wait. wait wait wait..
soon, our 5monthsary coming.. [=
happy, excited, anxious! XD
and baby, u know my secret~ dam! =/
and its true k..
hahas. no secrets between us alright??
muackxs muackxs

BAOBEI;KISS'HUGGS
ILOVEU~
MY GREATEST SILLY DUMBPIGG!

Labels: - we Promise -

♥ i'd love u since forever

6:06 PM

♥

13DEC07-

ytd, hlp hannahDARLING with her blog.

hmmm, darling,, hope u like it ehhs.

=)

actually, didnt hlp much.

just hlp her with some editings. XD

and the tag board too.

u wu gui..! =Xx

say i blurr uhhs??

-poke your nose-

how dare u?!

hahas.

lame luhhs i know.

and yes, was fed up with *******!!

kaos! 31DEC, wont be joining your.

know it well tt i would loved to go too.

but, what u gave me? SHIT.

so, cant i bring along my love one?

pls lars, kindly put yourself in my shoes.

if ya have a love one,

obviously u would also want to bring him/her along right?

argh! freaking brainless!

dam!! nvm, i can always stay with my love one.

say whatever u like.

PS kia, bastard..

lalalas.. whatever.

hey, get a life man!!

dun be so childish alright?

pathetic! =Xx

dun dam me alright?

its U! who did this yars.

alright, shall stop here.

if not, i will just continue damming u!

i miss baobei dumbpigg!

baby, see ya soon!

Labels: - we Promise -

♥ i'd love u since forever

5:56 PM

♥ December 12, 2007

on the phone with baby now.

yes, as usual..

NOISY!

but get to listen baby's voice,

im happy with it.

=)

really really...

i miss baby darn much! dam! how??

fri, fast fast come nahxs!!! arghh!!!!

-faints-

-lovesick-lovesick-

lalalas.. siann. (alright, im insane)

ahahahas!!!! i miss baby!

my greatest silly baby dumbpigg!

*muackxs muackxs*

♥ i'd love u since forever

4:49 AM

♥ December 09, 2007

rain rain, go away

-its lame i know-

BABY, busy busy busy!!!

till even msg me also delay liaos.

*cry in a corner*

w/O baby's msg, i felt so liveless ehh.?

MON-THURS~ soul-less body walking here&there.

shagss!

ahhs!!! thunder!

dam! i hate rainy days~

im afraid of thunders. :'(

rawrs!

someone, pls help me.

dunno why, my stomach have a weird feeling~

hais hais hais.

hungry?? lols.

nahxs.

im not hungry. i dunwan food.

i wanto "jian fei"!!

jian fei, Jian Fei, JIAN FEI!!!

rawrs!!

rain rain go away~

the feeling is nice when at home thou.

but, i dunwan thunders lars!

i scare!!

BABY, im scared..

ahahas.

so? baby also cnnt acc me. x(

sad sad SAD!

nvm, i go emo 1St k?

byebye peeps.

ps. baby & bearbear, misses to your!!

kiss;huggs>>babyBENJAMIN<<

Labels: - we Promise -

♥ i'd love u since forever

11:48 PM

♥

just reach home not long.

Baby send me home..

xiexie baby~

=)

baby's always so nice & sweet...

even thou he's tired,

he never fails to send me home..

plae monopoly & uno with baby

& charmaine (baby's meimei).

i almost go bankrupt.

KNS, baby always buy buy buy!!!

haiyohs!

hahas.. he nearly go bankrupt too ooh.

but his houses helped him!!

argh! even a cheap cheap house also can

get so much money lors..

Baby, dun action.

your not always so heng de.

wahahas! =Xx

nxt week alright??

me and charmaine meimei will make u go bankrupt!

i make sure!!!!

wahaha!! -evil-

baby, these 3 days, just wonderful nahsx!

know why?

told u in msg le..

but u said almost, but but...

never hor.. i very guai hor??

hehehes.. BHB. i know that~

xiang ni lars!

gosh, going emo till fri again. -.-

hmmm, but but.. baby's msg & voice never fails

to put a smile on my face.

________________________________________

Baby, i did it!!!

my promise to u..

hor hor??

i will abide my promise de!

u this silly baby.

wahahs.

i love u ooh.

heng your phone ok liao,

if not ahs, i dunno what i wil do

if i didnt recieve your nitenite msg.

i will go emo. thn die die. =Xx

no la no la..

hehs..

_________________________

i wanna be your sleeping beauty~

nitenitex peeps,

__________

nitenite baby,

nitenite beabear

kiss;huggs >>baby<<

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♥ i'd love u since forever

7:55 AM